issue of the heart.

complications
complicated...

mind versus heart.

reminders everywhere.

im still alive but im barely breathing.

schedule for now is:
work work work
play play play
shop shop shop
chat chat chat

i need distractions please. :o

and im outsourcing for top quality waygu beef, medium well please
HAHA (hints oet)

turning revengeful? :o
:o i hope not :D

:)
not as easy as i thought!

am bored,
so decided to blog again,
and im pretty surprised that my friends are really concern abt me,
especially after ive changed my r/s status.
haha,
and im fine :)
back on the right track alr,
not gna waste anymore tears and time on someone not worthy of anything :)


oh yehhhh, having my hols all the way till sep22.
sighs, its getting boringgg,
no lifeeeee alr, drama and eat and sleeeeeep.
and ive finished the whole ANTM cycle 15 and 16
have t restrict myself frm gg out too often, got to save $$.

alrightttt, wishlist and plans for the holidays:
1. learn powerboat (have been saying fr ages)
2. pick up a new language (jap/malay/french/sign language :)
3. get a jobbb
4. find more tuition assignments
5. get a life
6. gucci shades :)
7. burberry's RED staple dress
8. many many urban decay/sephora products :D
9. new slippers; RED? BLUE?
10. bold RED lippy
11. new hairstyle
12. pick up a new sports, maybe?

and a friend came up to me and said
"guess tml's headlines will be girl found motionless in bedroom"

but i told him, it should be
"young man murdered by ex-girlfriendS"

HAHA.

trapped
emotionally;

15 months-
you opened my eyes,
revealed your true colours,
never knew lying was your forte,
all your ideal pretences,
splendid denials,
flawless maturity,
everlasting promises,
fabulous attitude,
wonderful memories,
outstanding charisma,
unconditional love,
decent conduct,
admirable integrity,
authentic feelings,
fufiling experiences
and the beautiful slut...

what a perfect letdown.
i need more courage
gna be decisive,
and end it once and for all.

you will regret,
yes you,
i'm referring to you :)

all day staring at the ceiling
making friends with shadows on my wall
all night hearing voices telling me
that i should get some sleep
because tomorrow might be good for something

hold on
feeling like im headed for a
breakdown
and i dont know why

but i'm not crazy i'm just a little unwell
i know right now you cant tell
but stay awhile and maybe you'll see
a different side of me

i'm not crazy i'm just a little impaired
i know right now you dont care
but soon enough you're gna think of me
and how i used to be
me


awesome song frm matchbox twenty
its so relevant now, sighs,
never expected myself t be close to this state.

i still miss you :(

fast five.
awesome show: 5/5 stars,
hot choco during the show is good :)

The lost blademen.
not-so-good show: 2.5/5 stars,
badddd, plus companion :o

black friday was indeed bad,
bad day till saturday,
no no, till today :)

drowning myself.

BREAKEVEN.